I HATE MY FUCKED UP fucking dad!! He's a bloody fucking son of a bitch... Useless, loser, selfish, show-off. He is the most fucking hated person in this fucking world! One that only uses his fucking mouth to judge others. Doesnt even care about ones feelings. I hate him so fucking much! I will never wanna depend on youu, so that when i comeo ut to work, i'll never have to repay your "kindness" I dont fucking respect you at all, you dont deserve a shit my of sympathy. I hate hate hate you so much, that i am willing to scream it out loud and let the world know what a loser you are.................

The lion fell in love with the lamb

CHARLOTTE RAWWWKKKZ!

I hate love! my life's falling apart. Why must such things happen to my family? i have so many questions yet no answer. I really hate the way im living right now. I hate the feeling of having to worry so much about whats happening at home? I cry myself to sleep everynight, hoping tmr would be a better day. i pray and pray hoping my life will be back to the way its suppose to be. I long for a happy family, not a broken one. laughter and joy just doesnt exist in my house aynmore. the tension btw everyone just gets stronger and stronger. I hate you for what has happen, you dont deserve to be in this family, you're just a fucking shadow sitting in the front seat everyday, i dont wanna see you ever again in my fucked up life!

my 2009 diary, another chapter of my life

NO SHITZZ! tmr is the damn fucking day, the day of my results... im so fucking scared. counting down now, 12 more hrs to that, so fast. im so nervous, clueless of what tmr will be like. Butterflies butterflies, omg shit shit shit $&*(#@)$!^$)@(*&$(@&)*@$^#$^!$#^%@!^!!!! i have been a good girl, please answer my prays!

drown in your tears

Im wanna be an events planner! i wanna plan big events, weddings, F1, parties, etc. Thinking of my goals just make me so excited. But just thinking of whats gonna come in 3 days time just makes me nervous. Butterfly butterflies.. im pretty worrried, dont know , just so many mixed feelings. i wanna get good result, i mean who doesn't. PRAYYY!!!!!!

Swallow me then spit me out

Clocks ticking really slowly, i just dont know why.. Maaybe im just not really enjoying my hols. I just feel really dead, like nothing can break through my hardened face. Well well, i wannna party party my head off... everyone's just so busy, i wanna work to kills time. I just feel like i hate everyone around me, friends just mean nothing to me now. Word cant simply describe how im feeling right now. During o's i was like planning my hols and everything, however nothing seem to work out, everyone decided to go there own way. I NEED AN ORGANISER!!!

The start of another chapter

mean GREEN fightin' machine




loveeeexz<3






Cheers to 2009! Its the ending to one chapter of my life and the beginning to another. IThe closure of 2008 was explicit. As i look around, i see maturity in the faces of many. I then ask myself, do i take the next step and just release all my burdens i had in 2008 or just stubbornly guard my stand and hold on to the grudges i held on throughout the years. I thank GOD for giving me the courage to move on, to take the very step that i feel is the most difficult one.
I WISH THAT NEXT YEAR WOULD BE A BETTER YEAR!!!